I am a potato on a ranch of my cousin

Published on Mar 27, 2019

I think that I got ill — I am watching movies for the second day already and doing nothing. I'm like a potato on a ranch of my cousin. 

This behavior makes me worry. I am stuck.

How to start work again? How to disable my distraction? 

Maybe, I'm doing something wrong and this is a cause of my potato life?

What am I doing wrong? Oh, really?! Am I asked this stupid question? This question is stupid because I know what I'm doing wrong. I know how to improve it.

I just need to do it. 

Sometimes I imagine how I need to improve these problems, my behavior... but it looks like a reachable unreachable reality. It feels too close, but too far far away from me. I don't know what to do and I know what to do.

I have an inner conflict. How did it appear? 

I guess I know how — the cause is a fear of something new. I'm afraid to change, but I want and imagine it.

Is it the right reason? I don't know. I came up with it just now.

Maybe, I overthink?

People often overthink when they can just to start to solve a problem.

Usually, problems appear in our minds — they don't exist in reality.


Today's my 200 words looks like public masturbation, because I show something intimate.