The last two weeks have not been too great. I often think about writing here, then I end up not doing it because I haven't got anything really smart to say, not that I had anything before. I neglected my weekly reviews, but I think its because I didn't find much value in it.
Nonetheless, I persist in writing, and now I am getting to grips with writing AND publishing.
August has been nothing short of a terrible month.
- I recorded 6 sleepless nights from 1st to the 6th of August. Then another 8 days from the 17th to the 24th of August. That was two weeks of pure hell.
- I worked on creating proposals every single weekend, but none of them led to any paid work .
- I spent a good many hours speaking to companies on potential full-time roles but in the end, I decided not to give in to sunk cost fallacy and gave it all up. I have no regrets, just that I'm poorer once again.
- Due to the lack of energy, I could barely survive the day and did not do my online courses, nor read or write as much as I would like.
- Suffered two foot injuries this month; a skateboarder crashed into me while I was waiting by a traffic light and the other was caused by a sudden sprint leading to a bruised heel with plantar fasciitis.
- Had very hard conversations with family, but I'm glad I have been brave.
- For the months ahead, practical living concerns will have me hit rock bottom. I foresee many debilitating events, financial hardships and more difficult conversations. Thankfully, I think I have more mental tools to help me than I ever had in my life.
- Learning how to kayak was the highlight of the month. I've done it three times; the first at the Beaulieu River, second in the Lea Valley and third also at the Lea Valley but with more friends.
- I had a light scrambling session with a friend who is keen to teach me how to scale rocks. Anything active is good.
- I had my first paid gig in 6 months.
- I'm more socially active this month with social events nearly every week, for that I am grateful.
So far, a good number of prospects have found me through inbound methods, and that works surprisingly well because I have not lifted a finger. I rejected or gave up most of them because I did not want to trouble myself with more grief.
However, personal circumstances will change that now. That means I'd actually make a very conscious effort to find work.
This means using up my network, job boards, cold emails, closed channels and more. Simply put, I'm going to be seriously ramping job-seeking efforts. It will be challenging, painful, irksome, and frankly, I know it will drive me to tears but it will bring many many good outcomes too.
For the month of September, it is important to have laser-sharp focus, employ decisiveness, and be ruthless in being distraction free - keeping my eye on the prize.